define: FAILURE

Being a Nurse is not my DREAM. i'm just doing this for my family. Today (aug.20,2011) is the worst and saddest day for me. I've been waiting for this moment for 2 months. Nursing board exam was held last July 2-3, 2011.. i know that during review days, i really gave my best for it. But i don't know why... i don't know what happened. as in. i was so nervous a while ago.. i'm so excited to see the results. But i'm so wasted. That moment that i didn't see my name on the list. I was really sad, seems like I'm dying. I'm so depressed. I hate failures.

That moment, my mother came besde me and asked: "what happened?" i just answer a loud cry.. I got nothing to say. They said that it's ok. ya, i know.. but i know, deep inside those smiles and advices, i can feel that they are so sad.. All i want is to make them smile this day. I just wanna ask them if do i really make them proud. But. tss.. What else can i do? nothing.. My friends keep on telling me that don't ever lose hope. Actually it's my own dialogue. Now i realized, it's reality hard to give those advices. For now, accepting the reality is the best way to forget those things. GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME. MAYBE NOT NOW.BUT TOO SOON.

Failure doesn't mean you are a failure... it just means you haven't succeeded yet. ~Robert Schuller

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-khates